///edit aaaaa oh gosh I didn't think so many people would care about me leaving ;u; like I really really didn't expect more than like 2 people to care OTL but yeah aaa I'm kinda starting to have doubts about completely 100% leaving or not

I was still planning on using both my deviantart and tumblr to post stories, art, and all my works whenever I make them, just wanting to cut off the time when I just "hang around" on the Internet. But after one day I'm starting to realize that there is literally nothing else to do around here and the computer is better than watching TV FML

So yeah, I'm still going to try and cut down Internet use to as low as I can, but if there's just literallyyyy nothing else to do then I'll prob still pop up on here.

I'm also going to try to start working more, on webcomics, art, stories, etc. so it may seem like I'm more "active", but I want to try and limit the time I just screw around on here for no reason.

So pretty much to sum it all up: I don't even know any more, I'll just keep messing around with my day-to-day routine and see which lifestyle fits me best for these last few years of school, I may or may not be active here, idk, we'll just see how it works out. Heck I might even be /more/ active online if I find that's what makes me happy

but again aaaaa thank you all for caring :''D


//this is pretty much for those who at least halfway care about what I'm doing and haven't already seen this on Tumblr, which I doubt there's many left on dA but still I don't know since I can't keep in touch with people nowadays at all anyways


but yeah I've found that my most hated place in life is this room
sitting in this chair
in front of the computer
i hate this all so much it burns my insides every time i log online all these websites the same thing every day blinding computer screen  i just really really really hate the computer and being here so much with such a burning friggin passion

now I WANT to say that I never EVER want to get back online but I will say the Internet is an /amazing/ resource for so many things and so useful for keeping in touch with people and updates about your favorite things and blah blah but im just so sick of being here every day I wanna throw my computer out the window like almost literally

but still sitting here doing nothing how does /anybody/ enjoy their life being on the computer all day
because I sure as hell don't
its fucking miserable

but then there's not much else to do for these last two years of high school, but still, I'm really really really going to push to stay off the computer as MUCH as possible

and when I say "stay off", I mean, just shitting around on the computer. I'll still use the Internet and websites to post my work, but, I want to get uninvolved and talk to people as less as possible online as I can I don't want to hang around on here I want to hang around in real physical places with real actual people.

Though I will say I'd rather Internet than watch TV so if this lifestyle I want becomes successful, I'll still prob be on the Internet about an hour or two a day

but still I've been so bored with my life suicide has been thought of many times and I'm so boredddd with my life and everything and i fucking hate sitting here doing nothing and want to get up and do /something/ and find out what things in life make me happy because computers sure as fuck do not

so yeah just I'm sorry anybody who wanted to get to know me, if anybody did at all, I'm just going to push to stop any new connections with people through the internet because I just hate this place. I still want to get on now and again and fangirl in fandoms over my favorite things but just not all day every day

p much I just wanna use the internet in moderation and as least as possible

but yeah, uh, let's see if I can actually get off the computer and make this work in my near future